feeling so ill lately.
idk what it is.
I guess I'll sleep it off.

I'm so tired. But exams are finally over.
I'm going to go collapse now.
The end. Of Andrew Tran.

So I think she has someone.
My math exam killed me today.
But I was less fail than I thought I would be.
I guess thats a good thing..
Chem exam tomorrow.
I don't think I'll be doing well on that.
I'm so tired and stressed.
I just wanna burn out and die.
):
But Pmall tomorrow ~ Yay.
And then. Downtown Friday.
I think.
Saturday...kpop meet...how exciting. =/
Kay. I'm too tired to write a long one today.
Couldn't write one yesterday because I ended up studying
until 2 am non stop.
And still failed today.
fk.

kay so I need to get this off my chest.
I'm one confused little boy.
lol.

So exams. Yay...~
Handed in my art portfolio today, and..that was today's exam. ahahah.
Helped Mau with his english work and went home.
I ate so much today.
I should really learn to study more...
Kay so.
Because exams are up.
I am barely able to talk to my jagi.....
It feels like we're drifting. But its just exams..I think.
And she even lose texting because she went over plan so I can't even text her..
=/
English tomorrow.
Ready.Set.Go.

Kay so.
Today. Woke up, texted jagi, as always.
Then lazily got up , showered then out the door.
Had to go downtown to pick up an art portfolio for my "interview" tomorrow =/
So I found the art store no problem, even though I forgot to take a map with me before leaving. lol.
Picked up an art portfolio and manga planner, yay . It'll be handy for when I start my one shot for the anime club. =/
So it was raining. How depressing.
I texted my jagi, but she was so busy studying that she couldn't come out to see me. :c
I was very sad. But I know that grades are very important to her.
So I'll just wait patiently till after exams are over. At least she's not outright refusing to talk to me at all like Nicole did last year. >:I
Saranghae Jagi <33

Mmm..So bought a coffee and went home.
Trying some new things in art. I think my portfolio looks pretty decent.
I hope.
lol.
;~;

Jagi HWAITING ! Get them good grades. <3

In the spirit of keeping my promises.
So today was pretty depressing. Just staying home and finishing up like 4583290589034 art projects. This class really likes to slap me with work. lolol.
So I still can't find my art portfolio. So tomorrow I can hopefully go out and get another or else I'm going to lose 15% of my overall art grade. Yaay.

Okay so. Jagi was studying all day so I really missed her. But we kept in touch.
She was the high point of my day.
Or week.
ehehe.

Kay so. I watched Death Bell. ANd I am now terrified to go back to school.
No really. I'm too scared to go and take my exam. I will never step foot into my school at night. EverEverEverEverEverEverEverEverEverEverEverEVER .

Kay so. I promised I would write everyday. But its Sat. now not Fri. So its technically late.
But its kay. I'm writing the night of.
And I'm sure my honey muffin will forgive me 100%
So today.
Woke up late but text jagi-cakes (: As always. eheh (:
I hope I am somehow to make her day happy..
I wish I had the power to doing that.
So since I waked up very late today I did not getting to wash my hair.
I felt greasy all day );
So get to school and yeah.

PERIOD ONE
Was supposed to be a review period. Didn't really do much. Blue Sticker What mean?
Discussed plans for today with Vee and Coulson. yey. And just spazzing about how Vee is getting the lollipop phone D:

PERIOD TWO
LMAO I SWEAR THIS CLASS IS JUST TIME FOR ME TO SIT AND DO NOTHING.
I've honestly done nothing in this class since the beginning of time. I swear. I hate math so much ;~; I really missed my jagithighs. And she was "presenting an isu"? :S
I hope she did well. One day...maybe one day she will dance for me.

PERIOD THREE
Okay so in this period I was just filling out info sheets for my art marks and pretending to be doing Chem work when the teacher came around, LOLOL.

LUNCH
FML. My friend Coulson needed to get some review for his geo class, and some girl he asked was bitching about it and about how he doesn't deserve it or whatever. So I had to text HER to ask her where she was so he can get the review from HER instead. She replies with "Tell him I'm in the libraray" instead of "I'm in the library"
She might as well say "He come you stay." I really hate her words. (:
I don't care about you. Just don't act rude, kay?
So I went into the library and meeting with my friend Andrew1/2.
We finishing fill out art info sheets and I print out my digiart projects. PISS ME OFF.
The file size was too small and the picture only taking 1/4 the page. I hating it. D:
So I just go to period 4 late a little.

PERIOD FOUR
Okay so. When I getting there in art, the first thing my art teacher saying to me is "I marked you absent, oops"
Stupidhead. >:(
Okay whatever. So I present my work and sit down. There is fire alarming. I dip school. Marked absent anyways.

AFTER SCHOOL.
So. I met up with Coulson and we walking up a road or two with Mauricio. And then HER tag along for no reason. She make me mad. >:(
Just walk with us when she know I dont wanting her around me.
Buzzing around like a fly to annoying me, >:(
Whatever. Coulson buy the bus ticket and me, Mau, and Coulson get on bus.
GO AWAY YOU. D:
Mau say byebye and me and coulson going to go seeing a movie.
We sawed Book of Eli.
My jagithighs texted me during the movie, eeee <3
I love it when she texting me first. She having a break from swimming and she texts me. (:
I hope I was the only one o:
But maybe not ;~;
How special am I ?
Maybe not . I don't know if I will ever finding out.
Okay so. Book of Eli. I thought would be stupid. But.
7.8/10. I what I giving it. Is pretty good movie. (:
Kay so. By this time.
Vee come back from Pacific mall from order her phone and...SHOPPING.
But is okay. We heading to Montanas. While eating there was the honey garlic sauce.
And I just thinking. OMG JAGI. I miss you. Eheheh.
I'm so obsessed. x)
So while eating we are talking about like everything.
We telling Vee about what the movie is about, and describe the whole thing.
And then. We starting to describe the entire part 1 of Death Note to Coulson.
He was so amazinged. lol. He wanting to watch it now.
And then after that he and Vee are describing to me what is desperate housewives.
And I was so amazinged. oh em gee.
I wanting to watch it now. D:
So we walk Vee home because is dark and then going home.
When I getting home. I want to texting my jagi.
She seem so busy now.
But she is 100% better then HER.
I swear. before. HER at exam was so bad for me.
Telling me
she have no time for me so she will
not spend weekened with me, but for studying.
And then not before school because for studying.
And not after school because for studying.
So what about lunch?
NO.
Because it for studying.
But I see more laughing eating and joking then studying.
Your book is closed.
Who yu fooling.
Stupid head. >:(
Jagi. Please never do that to me.
<3
My jagi must be so stress for exams.
I think she only having 2 left.
Lucky lucky jagi.
I am so stress for mine. So hard to doing. ;~;
Okay. Am Sleepy.
ANd about to sleep. and then phone calling from friend.
"Hey can you get me number for taxi? "
Lol. I was almost sleep! D:
But is okay.
My jagi sleep long time ago.
I feel almost lonely.
But is okay. JAgi needs her rest.
Saranghaeee <3
Goodnight <3

kay so today.
Well, last night. Must have been one of the worst sleep I ever sleeped.
I either had a nightmare or some funky stuff went down but
this is the third time it'd happened. Kay so
I THINK I woke up and couldn't move my body at all. I had my eyes open and was staring around my room, but I couldn't move my body in the slightest. I could see almost a scratchy area but thats really it. Like always I tried to open my mouth and scream, but I couldn't even do that. But then it felt like I had been dragged to the other side of my bed. Next thing I know I'm back to where I was. I just wanted it to be over. Couldn't move at all. Third time. Terrifying.
So then I closed my eyes and after a while, it seemed to stop. And I was awake. I was too scared to go back to sleep. But I had to.
So I woke up to the sound of my brother's phone vibrating on the ground. The most annoying sound in the world. And he was too lazy to get up and turn it off, when it was RIGHT beside his bed. I hate sharing a bed with him. I had to yell at him before he shut it off. So went back to sleep and then my alarm rings like 5 minutes later. oh well. Get up, text my jagi, because today she texted me first. (: I felt so happy.
So got ready set and out the door.

FIRST PERIOD
Did nothing again. Had an exam review that lasted 5 minutes, lol. What a review. Have to write an essay for the exam as always.

SECOND PERIOD
Also nothing, LOL. We were supposed to be reviewing but I just sat there messing around.

THIRD PERIOD
ALSO NOTHING. By this time I was missing my jagi tremendously. But she was watching a movie =X I was supposed to review in this period, too. Rofl. idk why but I seem to really hate review.

LUNCH
I saw my friend for the first time in like a month. He went to Colombia and just came back. I missed him so much. Spent the lunch with him and talk bro stuff. So we were in his english room since he needed to prep for his class being away for so long. And we were just hanging and lunch ends so people start coming in. and so SHE comes in. >< The room suddenly turns awkward. I swear, she won't even let me be in the same room with her so that I can talk to my friend. Shes so awkward. I swear. I seriously haven't spoken a single word to her since 2010 started. Not even a hello. I don't even want to, anymore. I just want this crap to end to I can go on with my life without her in it.

FOURTH PERIOD
THE TEACHER WASN'T HERE. And the SUPPLY WAS STUPID :D
Lmaoo. She marks me here and then me and my friend tell her we're going to go sign out and that we'll take attendance down. Then we left school. lol. No fourth period , yay. Its a waste of a class, anyway.

So. I really miss my jagi. She hasn't texted me even though I texted her now. She must be busy with something. ): I hope shes okay. Hahah, she seems to really dislike the awkwardness of her self defense thing.

I'm really starting to get hyped for the 30th..
Yay kpop meet up.
I don't really know what to sing, yet. =/
Darn it, Karaoke with like 20 people? I don't know how thats going to go...=/
But its okay. Even if I can put out one song it'll be cool. Lol.
Uhm..
I think theres someone..
I don't know if I can ask her though.

So I'm not even stressing out about exams even though I HONESTLY SHOULD BE. LOL.
Like seriously I haven't paid attention all semester for chem or Math. Yet I somehow have an 82 in chem right now, ahahah. But come exam time and I'm going to mess up sooo bad. I feel scared now.
I'm super stressed for art. omg.
Like seriously. By TODAY I have to finish:
Art piece 6
Art piece 7
Art piece 8
Info-sheet 6
Info-sheet 7
Info-sheet 8.
Artist Statement
Artist Presentation Powerpoint.

How am I going to do all this shit?
And then I have to make sure to take pictures of those so I can compile it into an art portfolio...
Even better, I have to write a resume...for an art portfolio? What the hell?
Fuck. Art is seriously killing me. I hate this. I hate how all the teachers left massive amounts of shit to do until the very last week. Even better, the second half of the very last week.

Also, 2AMs comeback is beautiful.

kay so.Today was...idk.
Woke up late but texted jagi right away like always.
Couldn't even shower because I was so late. :c
Got to school and went to english. People were presenting so we didn't really do anything.

SECOND PERIOD
Math class...review. Again, I didn't do anything LOL.
By this time I was already missing Jagi since around this time she has jazz ballet and is too busy dancing to reply to my texts. Although this week she has...self defence? In case I get abusive. =| Which I won't, ahah. Wife beater=belt. :I

THIRD PERIOD.
I'm having probrems typing right now...
But I presented my ISU finally. Took forever. It sucked because what we were presenting, everyone presented first and we just had to reppeat what everyone did, just altogether.
I wanted to take picture of lunch to send to jagi, even if it was just sammiches. Since she doesn't ever bring her own lunch. ;~; So worried about her.

FOURTH PERIOD
I dont even remember what I did at this time. My mind is so kjfshjflkhsf right now. ;~;
All I remember is getting a text from noona saying 2AMs comeback came out and me freaking out in the middle of class.oops. c:

Okay so AFTER SCHOOL
I get outside because my anime club was cancelled that day. :c
Go to the bus stop and there SHE was. So annoying. She had that disgusted look on her face to see me. Like. the mad face that sort of looks like you're holding in a sneeze. I ignored her and talked to a friend that was also there. yay. Bused home and. COLLAPSED.

I feel SOOO bad. ;~; The entire day I felt like crap.
So I finally wake up at almost 9. And read my jagi's blog. I guess this is the stuff I do now..
Jagijagijagi.
But. She was waiting for me.And now I dont see her. I feel so bad. Why do I always fail her. ;~;

kay so. another blog posting...yay.
So got up this morning, earlier than usual because my brother told me to wake him up at 7 since he was going to hop on the computer real quick and type something out. So I wake up and text jagi straight away again. I hope I'm not annoying her?
Anywayyy, so I wake my brother up, and the response I get is "I'm too tired I'm going back to sleep." SO YEAH WOKE UP EARLY FOR NO REASON.
Anywaayyyy, showered, got ready, mommy made lunch for me and out the door. !
So when I got to school, I was just walking around the third floor when my art teacher hunted me down alongside the head of the yearbook commitee...I think ?
And she was all"oh this is the artist I was talking about".
So it seems that the 2010 yearbook had no cover art or whatever, so they decided to just do a blank ass piece of poop that was white, with a bunch f quotes on top in grey...
But then my art teacher was like "hey show her some of your work. If you could, could you do the yearbook coverpage" awesomeeee. I get to do the yearbook coverpage and make it look not ugly like the other coverpages of the entire history of Bosco's yearbooks.
Anywayyy, since I was talking to them about any details they could give me for this job, I missed a text my friend Vee sent me. She told me to meet her at the front of the school so I ran downstairs to the front to get her. I text her and she says shes already up top of the school and I had to run back up. oh my. anyway. she dropped off her laptop in my locker and left. I needed it to present for my english class that day.
Okay so. grabbed the projector, the laptop and set up in class.

Period one.
I did my presentation, and I think I did pretty well. The class seemed pretty bored as always and as ALWAYS ALWAYS once I stepped out of the class everyone call me speed racer or bullet since I presented too fast. ahahah. Oh well. The rest of the class was pretty boring.

Period Two.
Math test. Me suck. 'Nuff said. 0%

Period Three.
Presentations. I didn't present today so whatever, but it was pretty boring....Didn't even do anything today. I was dying. So I worked on the rough copy of the yearbook design. Yaay.

Period Four.
Discussed the details of the coverpage with the art teacher, and the second in command of the yearbook commitee. They both like my design. Awesome. Waiting on further details on the job.
I missed my Susiekins. She wasn't texting me much today. But its okay.

After school. My Jagi went to watch the grudge.Or so she told me. I went to my PLASP program and volunteered taking care of the kids. THEY ARE SO ANNOYING. It is unbelievably unbearable. like jeez. How does a girl get 6, 30 times in one game of Trouble? JEEZ.
Went home extremely tired. Mommy picked me up. On the way home, she went to return tickets to viet fest, and I was like "OH VIET FEST" and she was like yeah, want a ticket? And I was like "Yeah my friends are going so I guess I'll go, now, too" and so yeah now I have a ticket to viet fest. lol. And when I got back home pulling in the car, my jagi calls me crying. I was so worried about her. I hate myself for not being able to be there for her. I wish I could have been. She sounded like she needed me. and I failed.

Once I got up to the house, I immediately grabbed the phone and called her back to make sure she was okay. Had a nice 4 minute something second talk with her and she seemed to be okay so I was happy. Had dinner. A proper dinner. First one in forever. Yaay.
So I tried to figure out some of the kinks in this current art project that I'm doing right now. And I think its coming together really nice. Its a personal custom edit for my yearbook cover design. Yeah. Two edited versions.One for me. one for school. and I'll be happy. heheh. Nicole annoys me. So here I am typing this extremely SHORT blog post and I hope that my jagi will read it fully...but idk. Who knows anyone who would read something like this. =| so SHORT.
I'm really good at french. Jm'applle claud et poo-poo croissant et moi.
I'm also fluent in Italian. Spaghetti.
Japanese? Nihao~
Chinese! That be fifteen dorrah.
Korean. NIGA NIGA NIGA.
And that is the end of my insanely boring life.

Kay, so, since my jagi-thighs pointed out I have extremely short posts, I've decided to make them ever shorter.
So today in the morning as soon as I got up I reached over to grab my phone and text her. First thing to pop in my head was to text her, so I did. I think it made her quite happy. What a great way to start two peoples days. Mine and hers. Ehehe.
So after that was basically normal routine, sluggishly get out of bed, take a shower, get dressed and be ready for school. Pockets check, ipod, phone, glasses, wallet, keys. out the door.
Once I got to school I basically sat in the corner listening to music since I dont really have proper friends in the morning. My good friend(s) don't come until later. I have recently gotten addicted to MBLAQ-Oh yeah and SS501-Love like this. Whoever knew the songs I had absolutely no interest in would become my next obsession?
Anyway, English class starts, and the teacher isn't even there, LOL , How stupid. I still have to present my stupid poopid ISU tomorrow. I hate it.
Stressing because I haven't started, ahah. But its okay, I can probably just read my essay and still get a decent mark (lol. )

Okay so math starts and....I supposedly have homework? Useless class, nothing got done, nothing was done. Blah.

Today in Chem I sat beside a girl I don't usually talk to. We're starting to get along. All we do is talk about Kpop and such....while not listening in class...even though there was a full semester review going on. oops.

Okay so lunch was ...
I bought lunch off my friend. Half his sandwich and a drink for 2.50$ SCORE. What an awesome sandwich. I swear. But I saw HER. Stupid HER . I think she's gotten really close to this other guy. It makes me cringe. I swear, I think she'd be with anything if they're nice to her for a day.But whatever. She started wearing these boots to school...I think they're really ugly. =| and they don't match anything she wears. Ugh. I hate ill fashion sense. LOL. Anyway...idk if shes doing shit on purpose or whatever, but she keeps hugging the friend I was with in front of me. =/ Really annoying. ahahah. Whatever. Kay so.

At fourth period, we had an "Emergency assembly" where we went and got yelled at by the new principal for being such a dirty school. Then he said if we dont want to be part of the "program" we can leave and he doesn't want us. And that he has a bunch of niners lined up to come here . Last time I checked, we cut classes because there were too little students. Now theres not enough space? Kay so the "Emergency" was that....a few days ago it was MLK day. What an emergency. We watched the "i have a dream" speech and left. So I went back to art class, sort of, and wentup to the science rooms to do a chem experiment for my presentation on wednesday. I swear I have like 6 presentations this week alone. It was successful, so yay, I got out of Art to shake a few chemicals around. :D

So afterschool, I saw HER friend, who made eye contact with me, but I looked away, because he's an ass. And shes an ass. and I just went straight home. Now I'm kind of hungry and have decided I will be trying to eat healthier. I'm sort of a fatty.. and I wanna lose some weight. ANd flatten out my tumtum. On the bus ride nothing happened , but once I got off the bus, there was this black guy that I thought was following me from the bad hood so I started panicking and walked really fast. rofl.rofl.rofl.

My jagi was at swim practice, so I decided to leave her a few nice messages for her to get back to once she was done. I hope it made her happy. lol.
And there you have it, an extremely short blog post that anyone can read in less than 5 seconds.

I hate math. Like. with all of my heart. Seriously.

Mmm. Today. I feel wanted.
<3

So. Jagi and I have decided to open an album up on facebook
containing all the pictures I doodle in msn. I'm really happy she keep them.

hacked .
i hope you dont mind .

kbai oppa .
<3

being happy is the new black

Today I went over to my friends house to work on a presentation.
On his msn list
she was online.
I guess she really did delete me, afterall.
She did on facebook, anyway. But now msn, too?
Being hated...feels...
ow.

I was offered magic to fix my broken mass of hot glue, tape, and rubber bands. With the occasional staple. Can this beat for anything anymore?

kay so...
Today during school I saw her and she looked outright miserable.
Until she saw her friend.
I think I'm 100% replaceable.
So tired. I have no energy to do shit in school.
especially art. Fuckkk art.

Afterschool I went to that elementary school to volunteer and look after the kids.
Got home at 7. Slept till 11.
I've never been like this. everyday.

but at least she seems happy. I'm glad.
I wonder what its like being happy hating someone.
Since I'm happy being hated.

So yeah. Andrew is now 18.
I am will go have fun as an 18-er.
But nothing to do, so I will staying home.
I love my friends. <3

So, yeah. I...going to start blogging...first post...thanks susie. I'm start blog because she inspire me to.